Inner View, 3"x 3" watercolor, M. Rattigan copyright 2014
Black and purple. Black spot growing and shrinking; fading and reappearing. Reaching out in thin lines... it becomes a pupil. Shifting left, tilting left -- eyes, faces, a female head squeezes out towards the right from a long, thin metal tube. Sheets of purple with thin red trim. My body twitches and the shoulder pain shoots down my left arm and into my pinkie and ring fingers. I take a deep breath. Let go. Waves of pain persist. I open my eyes in a daze. I don't feel like I am fully awake. I force myself up to paint. I feel distracted, check my phone, lose attention... paint again. Yes, this is a small part of the inner view.
