Line of Growth
Watercolor, 3 1/2 x 3 1/2, M. Rattigan c. 2014
Return from Concussion
It's been a long journey, one still going on as I recover from a concussion from a minor accident which took a major toll on my daily living. I had not been able to fully meditate as I was in much pain and experiencing dizziness. Much of my earlier posts began eluding to horrible headaches and to feeling off, uneasy, and as if I was swaying... it only got worse as my condition was exacerbated by misdiagnosis and lack of proper treatment. My body was telling me, but I was not listening fully, and waited too long for a second medical opinion.
Today was my first attempt to try meditating on my own again. I am happy that while I do have a slight headache today, I was able to focus and breathe fully without rigidity and shallow breath. I credit my short work in Restorative Yoga with Lisa at Pink Lotus in Woodstown and Swedesboro, NJ as helping me achieve this reconnection back into my body and breath. Namaste. Please look them up at pinklotusnj.com.
Today brought me a line of growth. After a bit of feeling movement: a back and forth/side to side sway, I saw the line extend from the lower left corner of my mind towards the upper right corner. Midway, there was a slight bend. Fibers wrapped around it: what were they? Was is a leaf? Was it a cocoon? Was it simply thickening? I felt a small 'ping' of pain on my right shoulder and right side of my neck. I noticed pain mirrored on my left and right sides of my head just above my ears. The line that was slightly bent continued on its bent journey, and curled under itself to make a loop before connecting to the upper right corner. This new shape held significance as it presented itself inside cross-sections of my body: in my head, in my lower neck, in my shoulders, around my heart, and at my hips. Interestingly, even though pain led my imagery process, the image itself feels like a comfortable connection: a balance. I see it, I acknowledge it, I feel it, I know it, I listen to it, I give it space, I learn from it...
Thanks for listening.
